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-10 days to go I should be happy but there's something wrong in everything that always lets me thinking in a negative way, I also should be happy cause I took some blood exams to see if everything is ok and I'm healthy before to go and I'm ultra-ok!! but boh... well time to cook, soia+onions yumyum...
stay angrrry!

wow I'm cool, today I said another new sentence in Finnish just by myself, listen people!
- kuinka paljon karvapeppusi maksaa?
ahhahaha I kick! and as always, please if I'm wrong, correct me!
I had ANXTV practise tonight and it was quite ok, we are working to 2 new songs even if, maybe, I'll never see them recorded somewhere, boh...
anyway I'm happy! then I hanged in the internet with Marco (ANXTV bass-hero)looking for some menhir and megalitic stuff, it seems that old ligurian people just came from celtic culture or something even older and unknown, we already visited 2 pagan menhirs in a wood not so distant from La Spezia and it was great! Anyway internet had been useful and now we know about some other megalithic places to explore (and adore!).
I'm tired now but my eyes don't want to close, my mind is having a Nukke Kuolema love overdose!! <3
In the end I won't go to play records on friday night cause I prefer to go and see Avskum in Viareggio hoping to don't see pathetic scenes of fighting drunkards breaking bottles...
dai, I'll go, I fucking miss my girlfriend!

A.

ne urpot ovat MrBones ja Fulvio Belandi (saturday night drunky madness time)

ciao facce di merda ihihhiihih
it's a long time since I don't write something here, something like little more than one month, and in a little more than one month I'll fly to Helsinki, fortunately I'll have a work interview soon there hoping to have a work and start to make things working in a cool way, I really hope it. Meanwhile here I'm still plaing with ANXTV and saving money working even if not so much cause tomorrow it will be the first time after 10 days at home... yes I've a shitty contract which says that they can just call me to work when they need someone otherwise...rot at home! Tonight I want to stay at home even if many friends told me to go with them in different places, but I'll read my new horror-mania-magazine and try to sleep soon since I've to wake up at 6... tomorrow afternoon alcool chaos and madness under the central theathre in my city where punx&co use to meet, I'll be with the king of darkness Fulvio Belandi (if you use slsk just go and download his videos...deathrock from hell straight in your face!)
The next week there will be a cool gig in a squat not so far away from here: Avskum from Sweden will play with Campus Sterminii and Berserk, I'd like to go but I've to play recs in a shitty place and since I need money to leave I'll go there... boh dai, maybe I can find a good solution just have to think. Don't wanna bore/bother anyone with the rest of my life here (mainly about our LP)... just hope that time will fly and I can be at the helsinki airport soon.

this is some of the finnish I can currently speak:
olen vitun onnellinen urpo
(please correct it if wrong hahahaha)

sì, we are going in one hour, before I've to show to some friends "one of us" (the best zombie movie ever, I'm happy because of many reasons and here we go we a short list of the important things:
- I've the best girlfriend
- we are going to play in a square just in front of a very cool squat in firenze and it's full of friends there, this is just the kind of places where we love to play!
- On this morning I got 2 new dvds for MrBones&NukkeKuolema's place (when we'll have it)
ok time is flying I've to go... ihihhi we'll play with pioggia nera, they kick!

sì, I'm going to leave for Modena, there will be a nice (as I hope) gig with SS-Kaliert from germany, Action from canada, nowhiterag and carogna from italy and are good friends and another band I don't know... hope that bands from abroad will kick, besides I've to go to this gig also for business cause I'll see many people involved in the 4-bands-lp-project which we are planning, a good news: artwork for the inside poster is ready and will arrive straight from helsinki on the next week! I'm happyy and drawings kicks sooooo much (thanx to my lovely blasphemous half!). The gig is in a cool squat (la scintilla), one of the few left here in this wasted italy dai, 3 hours and half of trip by train are waiting for me (I'll travel alone, good time to do my finnish homeworks and read some lessons book)
before I'll have some beers with Fulvio Belandi the king of darkness
stay cryptic

anxtv practise tonite was quite good, after some minutes of chaos we had some well done songs, we are getting ready little more day by day for the lp... the poster artwork will be great and I'm so happy cause I can share this vinyl with the best girlfriend ever and with good-friends-bands whiii I'm only hoping that everything will work out good&cool...
hi to everyone out there and some creepy kisses to my heart squatter.

head starts to hurt after a day at home, I should have gone somewhere since weather is beautiful but no one is around and I feel bored of everything, I did some stuff and took some pics, some maybe are nice...
fulvio said that I'll play recs at halloween party, there will be a lot of nice parties that night so we have to do something cool and very horrorific... fortunately now it's supper time with friend whiiii

stay sick

many thoughts in my mind, but I've a worm feeling inside that makes me dream about things getting better and days which deserve to be lived deeply.
I'm awfully sentimental but I'm proud of that, good night to everyone out there.
pikkuveli

I'm so happy and lucky to have a grilfriend like mine, I'm sure I don't deserve her but I'll try to be the best boyfriend ever. I'm anxiously waiting for the day we will wake up and spend a lot of cryptic time together... but waiting for that I keep my mind busy (for today at least) with some nice stuff to do... even if I'm able to do what I've in my mind hiihihihhi

stay cryptomantik
A./MrBones

but I feel better now, these days were terribly awful and I was so depressed but on this evening talking with my girlfriend had been enough to cheer me up and I really hope she's better too, now it's time to sleep.

this evening happened: while I was going to a friend of mine's place with Rattus 3 different persons stopped me just to say tha my dog is sweet and beautiful (hihihihihi) and one of them, an old woman, asked if I was the guy that in th 90's had this long colored mohawk and as replied yes she started to talk about me a lot, like my school and stuff, I was O_O cause I've never seen this woman before...

ciao/bye/moi

è lo stesso pensiero di quella notte che mi tormenta, quella volta ho trascorso il mio tempo tra i brividi di un aria fresca e diversa, oggi sono invece qui tra le mie quattro mura di pesantezza e un senso di angoscia che mi logora dentro, i pensieri mi schiacciano come muri che si avvicinano inesorabilmente lenti, sempre presenti in me. certe volte vorrei essere più forte o più freddo o forse solo un po' più stabile. c' erano giorni in cui la curiosità superava ogni limite e non riuscivo a star fermo travolto dall'entusiasmo, oggi mi sento sterile come un ramo secco quasi come se tutta la linfa fosse stata succhiata, non mi resta che cadere a terra e decompormi tra le foglie brune cadute da altre anime spente. eppure dovrei essere felice, non c'è nulla che mi manca o forse qualcosa che non riesco ad esternare. vorrei poter spiegare queste cose ma attualmente credo di essere solo un noioso inutile sentimentale stressato, dentro a ogni cosa ad un certo punto c'è il vuoto che prima o poi svilisce tutto in un soffio e così via e così via. A.

hummm, during boring dark nights sick doctors dismember corpses, mad scientists try to give life to creepy creatures, graverobbers take cool stuff from scary cemeteries, hungry cannibals bite human flesh inside deep and black caves, priests rape children and bone idol starts live journal... well now I can feel cooler... anyway why am I here? just one reason... and someone knows it very well...